A Final Goodbye

 

On Wednesday the cat came home.

That was the start.

Starving, disorientated,

blank eyes riddled with 

pain and confusion,

chasing his tail in dying circles.

I bundled him into

a basket, couldn’t wait 

to finish his death sentence

as I bolted to the vet for a lethal cure.

I said a final goodbye

with averted eyes and

brought him home

in a shroud of discarded

sweater. Wept a gutter full

of tears for the absent cushion of fur

at the end of the bed.

 

On Friday the telephone rang.

That was the end.

A moment’s hesitation,

a blink and you were gone.

As the hairdresser sighed

and looked at the clock, 

you put your hand to a brace and 

expired. In one last beat of

happy memories, life in a flash

or mind numbing pain

your heart ruptured, 

pumping your blood into space.

I didn’t say goodbye to 

the lolling death mask 

of a stranger. My eyes smarted 

from the slap but I didn’t cry.

For when I looked for the missing 

mountain, you were still there.

 

Publications

 

Noeleen Mary - Quiet Moments Anthology- 1996

Touch - Mixed Emotions Anthology - September 2005

The Spider - Manchester Adult Education Magazine - January 2006

I See You - Peace & Freedom Press - 2006

Packaging - Pipeline - December 2006

Communication. Ego - The Ugly Tree 14 -February 2007

Thistles. Not for Her. Packaging - The Ugly Tree 15 - July 200

Snapshot. Prisoner. Trust - The Ugly Tree 17 - February 2008

Decision - 14 issue 7 -November 2008

Oil. People Watching - The Ugly Tree 20 - February 2009

Trunk - Rain Dog 15 - March 2009

Indelible Bond - Carillon 25 - November 2009

Insomnia - Carillon 26 - March 2010

Ego - Best of Manchester Poets 2 - December 2011
 
Bad Echoes - Emerald Boltons - December 2012

Touching Nothing - Turbulance -December 2012

Pecked. Touching Nothing - Burning Houses - 2012

Dear Orpheus - Best of Manchester Poets 3 - September 2013